Blah, blah, blah. Where is the face to face conversation nowadays…?
why is everything reserved for social networking now? I appreciate the bridge social networking has created for me in reaching out to places like California and South Carolina and so on and so forth, but at the end of the day, it’s so empty.
All the people I meet on the internet or text. Yet no conversations face to face. It makes me feel somewhat unsatisfied. Where’s the laughs over drinks, or random hangouts and stuff? Why does distance play into it?
And then those I actually know and have met before don’t ever hang out. Argh it’s annoying. It’s contradicting.
I just need a private jet or a magic carpet. Just fly around and hang out with anyone I felt like. Or at least get out the house.
I don’t know where my mind is really right now. I feel as though I’m in a floating, drifting stage at the moment. I feel relaxed yet sore, rested yet weary, right yet wrong.
I’m really trying to grow. And I’m not trying to force it.
I just feel myself filling with a myriad of emotions and the way I perceive things is really beginning to change. The way I view my friends, my family, my love for this woman, and the way I view myself is beginning to sort of, sift from the sand now, if you will. I’m starting to lose uncertainty around me.
At the same time, I still make unsure habits apparent. Not out of nervousness, but out of habit. It bothers me. Because I know I’m wrong, yet right. It’s bad habits that subconsciously make themselves apparent at the most inopportune time. I want to drop them so bad, lose them, and bury them somewhere. I know it takes time, but I want it to be vacated from my mind.
I’m tired of being a doormat as well. I’m beginning to take things by the reins more, but people still try to take advantage of me. I hate it. And at this stage, as much as I care about others, so much so that I put my happiness on hold, I can’t do it anymore. It’s wearing down on me. People don’t deserve it. I’m not the person to make character calls, but I know when some people deserve genuine kindness, and when some just use it. Being used is not a good feeling. So I’ll just kill that noise now.
I’m trying not to be down so much anymore. I have so much to look forward to. So many happy things in life. I have no need to look at the bad, the drab, every time. Another habit I need to drop. I have so many reasons to smile. So I need to.
“Shall I compare thee to a summer’s day?
Thou art more lovely and more temperate:
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,
And summer’s lease hath all too short a date:
Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,
And often is his gold complexion dimm’d;
And every fair from fair sometime declines,
By chance or nature’s changing course untrimm’d;
But thy eternal summer shall not fade
Nor lose possession of that fair thou owest;
Nor shall Death brag thou wander’st in his shade,
When in eternal lines to time thou growest:
So long as men can breathe or eyes can see,
So long lives this and this gives life to thee.”—William Shakespeare, Sonnet XVIII (via eternalconsciousness)
People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.
A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.
A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master…